To See Your Face

Makes me everyday.

Banquet was really nice.
not because of the mediocre food. and the boring movie.
but because i got to be with him.
and we got to be with each other.

just that i got to see him was enough for me.
and i think that each time...i fall a little bit more for me.
(:

FRESHMAN. READ.

gerkin is my nickname.
jacob boring gave it to me last year
cody munro made it stick.
gerkin is my nickname.
don't ask me where it came from
thats just what is it.

oh and 411-
gherkin, is a baby pickle.

thank you
(:

and now, if you ask me what gerkin is, i'll know you don't read my blog, and i'm now not going to be your friend anymore.

again, thank you
(:

Break

this has been the most amazing break i've had in a long time.
like. just spending time with the family has been really enjoyable.
thanksgiving was great! both of them (:
outlet shopping at midnight through three am. was funnnnnn.
talking to him made my everyday. it really did.
so yeah. i'm happy

life is amazing :]

History Class Today :]

Maybe when we're older
words won't be so hard
i'll find a way to talk to you
and something may just start
i'm scared of what will happen
if i open up my heart
i'm thinking out scenarios
that are tearing me apart
i'll tell you that i love you
you'll say i don't love you too
i know i shouldn't tell you that
i just had to know you knew
maybe when we're older
we'll fall in love again
but with different people
because we'll have changed since then
i'll see you walking with her
and you'll see me with him
and sadly for the rest of the day
i'll sit there reminiscing
but maybe oh just maybe
we'll find a way to make it work
and when you wake up in the morning
you'll be with me instead of her
maybe when we're older
life will be better
you'll be my always
and i'll be your forever

i should really pay attention in class instead
:P

End With A...Blink

so. if i were to rate homeleave i'd give it a... 9/4
Pro's: i got to get on the computer
i got to stay up late
i got to watch movies

Con's: I'M EXHAUSTED.

makes me wonder wheither or not i get more sleep at home or at school...?

what does that have to do with my title?
nothing. the title is because i'm ending this wonderful saturday screaming at my computer b/c the hotel internet comnnection in ocean city keeps blinking on me
not cool =/

oh well.
peace and love yo.

The lyrics that saved the soul

there's so many memories
that get stuck in my head
thoughts that you have told me
words that you have said
things that i don't want to know
yet still i need to hear
you keep me at a distance

when in turn i want you need

so now it stats to stink in
and now i've finally realized
that you don't see me
as part of your life
like i see you in mine
i'll walk out the door
theres no more need to stay
but when i look back i'll think
*will i be good enough someday?*

everything is normal

when you're looking from your eyes

but when you see things

from my point of view

you're in for a suprise

it means nothing to you

when you child-like smile at me

but i still sit here wondering

if it'll ever mean something

but now it stats to stink in
and now i've finally realized
that you don't see me
as part of your life
like i see you in mine
i'll walk out the door
theres no more need to stay
but when i look back i'll think
*will i be good enough someday?*

i'll just let it all out

till there's nothing left to show

soon it will all be over

but no one will ever know

i'll just let it all out

i'll love and scream and write

i'll cry till i have nothing left

then fade away with the night

now it stats to stink in
and now i've finally realized
that you don't see me
as part of your life
like i see you in mine
i'll walk out the door
theres no more need to stay
but when i look back i'll think
*will i be good enough someday?*

i'll walk out the door

theres no more need to stay

but when i look back i'll think

*will i be good enough someday?*

What We Want

this is old but ever applicable:
would we really want to go out with someone who doesn't love us back? right this second, would you go out with her knowing how she feels? would you really go out with him know that he loves another? and would she go out with him know that he loves yet another?
is that really what we all want? if it's not, then why do we still long for them? and if it is what we want, then how could we live with that, know that. maybe, we want them back because we think that if they're with us, then maybe they'll fall back in love with us...

any thoughts?